I’m sick of this weather – the cold and the rain. What use is spring-fever when the weather’s crap? I can’t get motivated to do anything as I sit, feeling cold, with dark clouds outside. The inside of the house never gets above 15 deg C (unless of course I put the heater on and [...]
Archive for the ‘melancholy’ Category
Lacking motivation
Posted in home, melancholy, tagged belly dancing, photos, weather, Wellington on 17 October, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Sigh
Posted in home, interests, melancholy, tagged cold, emotions, exercise on 12 May, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Didn’t go to belly dancing class tonight – I get fed up waiting around until 7pm especially when it’s dark and there’s nothing to do – can’t read a book or go to the public library. I went to Warehouse and bought some cheap shoes and a cheap jersey. One pair of shoes I’ve been [...]
Strange weather
Posted in melancholy, tagged depression, weather on 27 January, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
After three blistering hot days, yesterday was gloomy, wet and cold. Today the sun shines again. One never knows what to wear. There could be a cold wind, it could be swelteringly hot, it could rain. The weather is daft.
And on top of all that the black dog nips at my heels (again) as I try [...]
That’s that then
Posted in melancholy, visits, tagged friends, Mount Maunganui, New Year's Eve on 3 January, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Xmas/New Year done for another year. It was a fairly quiet one at my friend’s place. Of course I drank too much (I blame the red wine which my friend’s partner kept pouring in my glass). When will I learn? However, I remembered everything and everyone else danced to the blues music as well, so [...]
Limbo time
Posted in melancholy, visits, tagged anniversaries, christmas, loneliness, New Year on 28 December, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I always find this period between Christmas and New Year and the start of work again rather weird. Time passes unmarked but quickly, hot weather drains and you wander round between chores, games, browsing, reading and watching (TV and/or DVD). It’s also the time that I feel most alone even if surrounded by family.
Christmas Day [...]
Struggling to find motivation
Posted in home, melancholy, work, tagged cost of living, death of pet, depression on 9 July, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It’s been over a month since I blogged, ironically after saying it was good to blog. I’m trying to be positive in a world turned sour (or should I say more sour). My personal future seems dim. I’ve been searching for another job for the past four months now and there’s been absolutely nothing on [...]
Mistaken identity
Posted in melancholy, tagged Flickr, Grand Theft Auto 4, LCHC, New York, online identities on 13 May, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Two incidences in one day and both online – gotta be careful with those ids. I was browsing a friend’s flickr site and one of her contacts is someone who used to work here so I had a look (I thought) at her page of, I have to say, wonderful pictures. I even sent a [...]
Mourning the trees
Posted in melancholy, tagged disappointment, trees on 14 April, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m not happy at all this morning at work. This morning there are men outside with chainsaws chopping down beautiful gum trees. I love gum trees – they remind me of Australia. I loathe the sound of chainsaws. One of the trees just came crashing down and my heart plummeted as if watching the death [...]
The black dog nips at my heels
Posted in melancholy, work, tagged depression, moods, SAD on 1 April, 2008 | 1 Comment »
But he always lurks in the background – in the shadows so I don’t notice him. It coincides with the shortening days and the cooler, wetter weather signalling the beginning of the longest period of the year - from autumn to spring it’s basically winter – always cold and always wet. But of course it’s not [...]
The gloom returns
Posted in melancholy, tagged SAD, weather on 4 March, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I wonder what weather forecasters mean exactly, when they say ‘mainly fine’. What is “fine”? I ask myself as I look out into the gloom and the drizzle. It’s not even warm.
It’s not even the equinox and summer appears to be over. These same forecasters predicted hot dry weather until April. I’m not ready yet [...]
