I expected to be enjoying some warmer weather, some more time spent outside, tidying the garden, winding down for the year and looking forward to some time off work, Christmas at my brother’s, New Year’s eve somewhere, etc etc.
Instead I shiver with cold, feel depressed about the expensive things needing doing and extremely saddened about [...]
Archive for the ‘melancholy’ Category
At this time of year
Posted in home, melancholy, tagged breaking up, infidelity, misery on 5 December, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
A game to pass the misery
Posted in home, interests, melancholy, tagged videogames on 3 December, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been playing Morrowind lately – a computer game that I used to play a couple of years ago. I even blogged about my progress in the game back then.
It was a good time to re-start it as it takes my mind off home and family issues which are just bringing me down. Oh for [...]
Depression hits
Posted in home, melancholy, tagged depression, finances on 1 December, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Feeling mightily depressed. It’s not just the constant rain and cold, which is bad enough. I look forward to some warmer weather and sun at this time of year and it’s just not happening. We get one day of sun followed by a week of cold and wet.
Got the car’s brakes fixed yesterday – close [...]
Misery
Posted in home, melancholy on 17 November, 2009 | 3 Comments »
I’ve realised that I’ve been moaning a bit lately – particularly yesterday. I’ve moaned about the new work website, the proposed work function for Christmas, blogging, biscuits produced by Griffins, and probably other smaller things. I blame the weather – I’m so very fed up with grey skies and cold winds. It’s the worst spring [...]
Lacking motivation
Posted in home, melancholy, tagged belly dancing, photos, weather, Wellington on 17 October, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’m sick of this weather – the cold and the rain. What use is spring-fever when the weather’s crap? I can’t get motivated to do anything as I sit, feeling cold, with dark clouds outside. The inside of the house never gets above 15 deg C (unless of course I put the heater on and [...]
Sigh
Posted in home, interests, melancholy, tagged cold, emotions, exercise on 12 May, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Didn’t go to belly dancing class tonight – I get fed up waiting around until 7pm especially when it’s dark and there’s nothing to do – can’t read a book or go to the public library. I went to Warehouse and bought some cheap shoes and a cheap jersey. One pair of shoes I’ve been [...]
Strange weather
Posted in melancholy, tagged depression, weather on 27 January, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
After three blistering hot days, yesterday was gloomy, wet and cold. Today the sun shines again. One never knows what to wear. There could be a cold wind, it could be swelteringly hot, it could rain. The weather is daft.
And on top of all that the black dog nips at my heels (again) as I try [...]
That’s that then
Posted in melancholy, visits, tagged friends, Mount Maunganui, New Year's Eve on 3 January, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Xmas/New Year done for another year. It was a fairly quiet one at my friend’s place. Of course I drank too much (I blame the red wine which my friend’s partner kept pouring in my glass). When will I learn? However, I remembered everything and everyone else danced to the blues music as well, so [...]
Limbo time
Posted in melancholy, visits, tagged anniversaries, christmas, loneliness, New Year on 28 December, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I always find this period between Christmas and New Year and the start of work again rather weird. Time passes unmarked but quickly, hot weather drains and you wander round between chores, games, browsing, reading and watching (TV and/or DVD). It’s also the time that I feel most alone even if surrounded by family.
Christmas Day [...]
Struggling to find motivation
Posted in home, melancholy, work, tagged cost of living, death of pet, depression on 9 July, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It’s been over a month since I blogged, ironically after saying it was good to blog. I’m trying to be positive in a world turned sour (or should I say more sour). My personal future seems dim. I’ve been searching for another job for the past four months now and there’s been absolutely nothing on [...]