I’ve had enough of Blogigo I’ve decided. I’m sick of the sight of spam blogs and most of the blogs I used to read are no more – they’ve all moved on as well, fed up as I am. I’ve complained several times to no avail. If need be I’ll delete everything, but I’d like to keep some posts and export them if possible. I don’t think I’ll bother keeping my other blog on here. The ramblings of a lovesick no-hoper belong in the bin.
My current job served its purpose in the short term but now it’s time to move on again – to something better paid. I’ve enjoyed it so far but, as always, budget cuts mean no increase in salary and everything – absolutely everything, is rising in price. I can’t afford anything. I can’t believe how the price of cheese has nearly doubled in the past two months, for example. I refuse to pay that price. No more bingeing on cheese.
Unfortunately the best jobs are in Wellington. I don’t want to live in Wellington. I can’t even afford to – renting or buying a house is prohibitive. But I’ve lived there before and hated it – couldn’t wait to escape the place. It feels claustrophobic to me – surrounded by hills with a fault line running underneath and right on the sea – disaster strikes and there’s little hope. It’s a gloomy place and I had no friends there. It’s also where the ex lives and bad memories still reside there. But, I thought, perhaps I could live outside of Wellington and commute. I like the Wairarapa and could perhaps afford to live there. Thoughts are jumbling around. I really don’t know what to do, but I need a better paid job and they’re just not in this town.
My elderly dog is showing her age and is starting to be affected by senility. I have little hope of her outliving the year’s end. It might be a pessimistic viewpoint, but she’s now 16 and has had a good long life – I have to prepare myself for the end of it. I can feel it anyway. I think it will be this year. (I’ve similar feelings before with previous pets and been right, unfortunately.)
I’m as lonely as ever. Online friends are not friends at all in the end. How can you keep such friendships alive anyway when I barely come online. They have their real lives and I have mine, lonely though it is and an occasional chat with a keyboard is not going to alter anything.
It’s time to move on in more ways than one.
I never did post those pics from the last post. It doesn’t seem important now.
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